June’s Highlights
It’s been a long time since I’ve updated my blog. A lot of things have been happening in my life..while there’s never a dull moment, at the end of the day I’m often left asking myself ‘Why is life so unfulfiling?’. I’m still trying to find peace in myself. I read the Bible and I’m told that peace can only be found in God. I genuinley belive that..but my relationship with God is difficult to explain. I have so many emotional and psychological issues that are hindering me from achieving the spiritual intimacy I desire. I hope God refines me soon, because I am such a mess inside. I want I to have a pure, loving relationship with him.
Anyways, bittersweet introspection aside, here is a list of July’s higlights:
a) Faye and all the goons form the PM shift came over to my house after work. Princess also stayed in my house for a few days. Can’t really say it was a comfortable experience. Please don’t get me wrong…Princess is a wonderful person. It’s just that, well, I’m sort of extremely private , so having someone I’m not particularly close to share intimate space with kinda made me feel less than relaxed. Anways, back to the get together: well, there were so many of us that people were unable to find chairs. We all talked and shared junk food. Skippy had a good time harrasing everyone. God I love that dogggie so much. She’s a great PR rep. Faye, Ivy and the rest were busy talking about people whom weren’t there (I kinda joined in too). God forgive me for gossiping. I learnt a lot though: about all the political intrigue in the office, who respected whom and who disliked whom. Very revealing.
b) We had our team bulding in Antipolo. We had to be in the office at 6 am sharp. I was so excited I could not sleep the night before. I went online instead. Who needs sleep anyway? When I came to the office Rommel was already there. I said hello and went online. I filled in a weird bulletin on Friendster and had coffee, courtesy of Chat (by the way- I just found out that Chat used to be a Team Leader…than she left and now she’s back- go figure!) By seven the people who were coming were all there (less than half of the PM shift). There was a jeep waiting for us outside. I wasn’t exactly thrilled to be riding a hard, medieval jeep all the way to Antipolo on that bright, hot and sunny day (I had pictured an air-conditioned bus in my mind), but seeing that I was powerless to do anything I kept quite. Lacking sleep, I tried to snooze on the jeep, but the noise, motion and heat prevented me from losing consciouness. Geri snapped a photo of me with her cam (I looked like a corpse). She said that drool was running down the left side of my face. Very elegant. I noticed later that in the photo, my eyes were half- open..my mother always told me that I’ve slept with my eyes open ever since I was a child. I’d forgotten that. Looking at that photo reminded me of my nasty habit.
The waterpark we went to was scenic but crowded. Of course, people were singing off key to karoke tunes. The heat was oppressive. While everyone was in beach ware, I was in a long sleeved shirt. We had lunch and relaxed in our ‘hut’.
In the changing room I left my new sun glasses behind (the cool David Beckham shades I bought in Carbon). Those shades were really expensive. Twenty minutes later, I realized my mistake and went back to the changing room in panic. I honestly did not expect to find it still there. And I didn’t. I was in such a funk for a couple of hours after that incident.
The rest of the day was spent swimming, playing games, taking lots of photos and singing karoke. We had such a fun time. If no one believes me they can check out my team bulding photos on my friendster, also check out Jeanne’s page. We all shared a special, care-free moment that day. I treasure days like that in my heart.
PS: I got to bond with Geri on our team building. We resolved our differences and clarified all our issues. Geri is the buddy I was moaning about in my previous entry. Now, everytime I run into her in the elevator, we say hello to each other.
3) I resinged from ILDAEIL in June. I bought a pizza for everyone on my last day. The goons bought me a leopard toy dotted with pink spots as a going away present. I said goodbye to all my students and hugged everyone in the office good bye. After work, we all went to Shakeys (we spent the money we earned as the winners of the Best Team award…go Team Brewster. I also received a certificate for giving the best presentation for our team activities. My presentation was entitled ‘Little known Facts about America’). We ate aton of pizzas and fried chicken in Shakey’s.
I’m really going to miss those guys. I carry a lot of happy memories from my months spent in ILDAEIL. I had interesting students (Seong Ryeol I’m going to miss you!) I may not have gotten along well with everyone and in the begnning was very misunderstood, but I made some real friends and learned many new skills.
Life might not be perfect yet, but at least there are beautiful moments. Though I’ve learnt there is rarely a perfectly happy moment, you can laugh and celebrate life while you cry.
